Las Vegas PT2

i hate no scratch that i DETEST this place with an extreme prejudice. I have spent the last almost 12 years on my life in the godforsaken place some refer to an valley which i personally think is more like an oven. i sit around thinking...it might get better...but it doesn't and i officially fed up for this renounced place. I am doing everything i can to the best of my ability to do my best to get the fuck out of it. I am spending the next 8 months doing the best i possibly can to move out of this valley, this , this bowl of broken dreams, promises and lost hope. I have known for the last year that what i want to do is not here, its not anywhere near here. its not even close to here. i have to find a way out, i want no i NEED to leave. to have to seek a way out of this death hole before i a suck ed in and i am here forever wishing, thinking, and kicking myself in the ass for not leaving this dismal place when i had the chance