Utter Despair

I have been seeking employment in the las vegas valley since January. with no luck of any kind. yes i did work at a car dealership for 2 months but that was not a job i would of held much longer even if they hadn't let me go. The entire world seems to be in a since of utter despair. I am currently awaiting email from a previous employer to see if they will be able to sustain an employee based need to to operate their place of business in the upcoming holiday season. this seems to be my last resort at really finding anything worthwhile. I am seeking seasonal work and hopes that they shall like me enough to keep me on as part time. and as sad as it is any checks i do get already spent without me having employment due to my need to cover bills to even them out.

i have overcome my sense of brokenness and have come to the ultimate realization that i am not the cog in the system that is broken but the system itself is broken. but i continue to spin without my work producing results as the machine i work with is consuming vast amounts of substance without producing any