I have to escape....

Like Dae-su Oh I have grown accustom to the confidents of my prison. I have accepted my fate and become ok with my incarceration. But my 15 years draw near and I shall soon be free. Free form this damnation. Free from the misery. Free from the trials and tribulations being here has brought about. Soon my day shall come and I will be liberated from it only to succumb to a trail by fire of which I await with open arms for I know once I have walked through this inferno I will never have to see this hellish place unless by my own doing.

I have to escape...

There is no you

We live in a state of constant disillusion where we are forced things and perceive them to be the factual. When popular to then contrary they are anything but. I have become less concerned with fitting into the the world for none of it matters. Because it was never real to begin with, none of has ever been real and I have finally come to see it. There is no you, there is no me, there is no us, there are only the manipulators behind the scenes pulling the strings. But I shall no longer disillusioned by your false prophet, and his words of judgments and his fear mongering. I shall no longer be fed this lies you let seep into the general population. None of it matters. It never will. But what is sad is that your plan has worked, only i have seen it. Now it the time is too late to stop it for the machine has been activated and with off switch we can only wait for it to destroy itself. With this things I should of never seen I have entered a domain I should not be in. But I remain in the state knowing I shouldn't be here, for no matter how hard I try i have become a fixture in the space, slowly fading into it. I've been here so long I can see through myself.

My Prediction

Barack Obama Wins Election

-After his first term 30-60% of the mess bush has gotten us in will be cleared up 

-After his second term 60-80% of the mess with be cleared up 

-The American dollar will be worth around what it was in early 2002

-We shall be out of Iraq and move more troops into Afghanistan to find the real reason we're in the middle east

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John McCain wins the election

-Midway thru his first term he will die...he's too damn old

-We shall stay in Iraq

-The American Dollar will continue to fall

-Sarah Palin takes office after his death

-100's of 1000's of American leave America for Canada and Wealthier European countries 

-We become China's Bitch

-Mexico's economy becomes stronger then ours.

Once Sarah Palin takes office

-Fuck!!!! Global Panic

Obama Rally

so today i went to an Obama rally to help out in the morning nad then hear him speak in the afternoon....hearing him speak it awe inspiring. I stood there for 45 minutes listening to this make talk and make some jokes here and there as he spoke. Hearing him speak on tv or the radio has nothing on hearing him speak live and in person. Its something thats you honestly just feel inside of you and you know its right. I may not of gotten to shake his hand but being there alone was enough for me to know that the ballot i cast this afternoon was well worth it...

Untitled

i talked to her a few days ago and it always makes everything feel right again. she always tells me how proud of me she is, we talk of our next chance to see each other and then we'll tell one another how much we miss the other. We talk of how much school ties us down but how much it'll be worth it in the end once we've completed everything and we can finally start working on a career that we'll both love rather then a job we can't stand. even thought we can't see the others face we know there is a smile there as our conversation ensues. Something about talking to Joel, is just comforting 

I am Jacks Smirking Revenge.

I have the desire to write but my thoughts are to random, unorganized and clustered for me to make sense of them. but i get the general gist of what seems to swirling around in there. I have AD.H.D and i have misplaced my meds...on purpose something with severe ADHD prolly thinks im insane right now whilst someone with moderate understands why i have done so. Yet a person simply with A.D.D isn't concerned with the matter because they while unable to focus their thoughts dont have the issue of random burst of energy at random times of the day week hour month. OMG its like...its like...its like you've gone months without moving while being forced fed espresso and then all of a sudden the chair you are tired to has vanished and you now have 10 terawatts of energy flowing. its s system overload everything becomes intensified your thinking moves at the speed of light and you are unable to catch the ideas as the come in and you body refuses to sit still...writing this blog is one of the hardest things i've had to do in while my fingers are flying across the keyboard and in to the next word before i finish the one i'm writing i'm constantly backspacing and retyping

Terror Levels

Off to the right of them blog is the Homeland Security Advisory System for those of you who somehow didn't figure that out. This is something that didn't come out until around 2003. A fact that most of don't really notice is that this thing has 5 colours. Reason why we don't notice it has 5 colours. The News and Government like to keep this device around orange or red at all times. I know it hit Yellow a few times but i doubt it ever hit Blue or Green...EVER!!!  It has some words under that suggest what the colours mean. I'm going to tell you what they really mean

Severe- Today Something somewhere somehow will sometime at someplace...we think

High- Something somehow somewhere might sometime happen at someplace

Elevated- Someone said something about something so just watch out for something. 

Guarded- I heard something over there

Low- Get the fuck off my lawn...I'm sleeping.

Now when you see the terror alerts you'll know what they really mean

Genocide

Gen*o*cide |ˈjenəˌsīd|

noun

the deliberate killing of a large group of people, esp. those of a particular ethnic group or nation.

There have been many genocides throughout the world of its history. And no group is expept from them. Wether it was the Catholic Crusades, The Nazi Holocaust, or the Rwandan Genocide. These was all killings that  went unjustified and the only reason these people were killed is because they were blamed for the horrible happenings in their countries. 

If I told you I was the witness to a genocide last over 10 years would you believe me. If I told you that you yourself helped murder people in a genocide would you believe me. If I told you that this genocide was happening here in America would you believe me. Well I have, you are, and it is. 

We have slowly been killing ourselves and no one has said anything about it. No one has drawn a single eye to this as if it hasn’t been happening. How can we go around calling each other brothers and sisters yet killing one another everyday in the streets of america. These genocides have gone unreported because the people doing these crimes are not a national army, they are not a unified group, nor are they a militia. According to the government they are nothing more then a group of inner-city youths who come from low income broken and abusive homes. The groups are better known in popular culture as the bloods and the crips. But unlike the Tutsi and Hutu these two have wages war for decades without anyone trying to stop them.  

Technologic

Ok So as the rest of the Apple-Heads know, new shit came out today. And i want this setup off the the left, while something close to it. Thats the new Apple Display which FINALLY has the Isight, a mic and SPEAKERS built into it...its pretty much a iMac minus the computer components. But its made JUST FOR PORTABLES. It has a cable that comes from the back the charges your laptop, turns the monitor into a usb hub and of course can be used as a second screen....WHY...WHY CAN'T OPRAH GIVE ME MILLIONS!!!! hahaha, but anywyas this is the new toy i want its effing awesome and you know it is.

Utter Despair

I have been seeking employment in the las vegas valley since January. with no luck of any kind. yes i did work at a car dealership for 2 months but that was not a job i would of held much longer even if they hadn't let me go. The entire world seems to be in a since of utter despair. I am currently awaiting email from a previous employer to see if they will be able to sustain an employee based need to to operate their place of business in the upcoming holiday season. this seems to be my last resort at really finding anything worthwhile. I am seeking seasonal work and hopes that they shall like me enough to keep me on as part time. and as sad as it is any checks i do get already spent without me having employment due to my need to cover bills to even them out.

i have overcome my sense of brokenness and have come to the ultimate realization that i am not the cog in the system that is broken but the system itself is broken. but i continue to spin without my work producing results as the machine i work with is consuming vast amounts of substance without producing any

Sarah Palin

does anyone else find it a little scary that this lady could be our next vice president and president...lets face John McCain will not live thru his first term. this photo is not edited in way or form to my common knowledge. this is the palin family on vaction somewhere, poolside shooting rifles in american swimsuits...if there were anyone else she's be one CMT Trailer Park Queen of the Month and my April in their Trailer Trash calender.  Now to the picture on the right side. That looks like someone Grandpa McCain shows up with cause they "had a good time" oh wait HE DID!! and we wonder why her daughter is pregrant where we can find pictures of her drunk off her ass online. Speaking of her pregnant daughter am i the only one who's really looked into the whole pregnant daughter thing. no i dont see anything wrong with her daughter being preggers. but i think this might be the SECOND thing she's been knocked up. I tried to find pictures of mrs. palin when she carrying her youngest child but i couldn't..did i did find out that bristol was out of school for about 5 months before her little brother was born because she was severally ill with Pfeiffer's Disease, which is more commonly called Infectious Mononucleosis and even better known as Mono. I find it weird that she was out of school for the fives months leading up to trigs birth...but yea i'm done this subject, now for a good laugh

Might not be such a bad idea

I sit here in the town this city this whatever you call it i call it hell with slot machines...I have never really hated anything with a passion but i can say i hate vegas with a DEEP  passion. there is nothing for anyone here in this desolate place. i want to leave it behind and only visit to see friends and family. me and all of my pseudo siblings all want to leave it behind and forget it like the drunk girl you had your way with at a party.  my lil sis wants to go back to the islands to a place where she remembers happyness and left it behind only to visit it when she can. my brother is returning to a place where steel filled the hills and soot filled the skies. they're going back home...

i'm not

while home is always a great place to go back to in recent years i have changed my mind about this several times...but i have finally come to the conclusion that i shall for west. i've been to this place 5 times in my life and every time i felt an overwhelming feeling of joy and contentment. an over zealous sense of happyness. i felt as if...i belonged

McCain and Palin

So i listen to them talk and they remind me of the crazy family you have that sits down at dinner and starts talking and it all sounds good and then somewhere in middle of talking everyone at the table has starting to give them that look like..."What the fuck are you talking about?" I hear them talk and i think to myself someone has be to thinking the same thing....

better analogy

The race for the election is dinner at your family

Grandpa McCain and Aunt Sarah Palin are around of the table with Uncle Barack and your neighbor Mr. Biden

Conversation around the table starts and it's all good everyone getting along then Grandpa McCain and Aunt Sarah say something completely absurd and just wrong and EVERYONE gives them that look like WTF...you know as soon as they leave the table the conversation turns to

"They've gone crazy...what the fuck are we going to do with them"

After this election and when Mr. Obama wins Palin shall not be reelected the state of Alaska from what i see hates that Bitch....and no i'm not being sexiest by calling her a bitch...cause i think McCain is a bitch too.

Awesome

It's nice when you find out that you've made someone's day.

It's sweet when you find out that you've made two peoples day.

It's awesome when you find out that you've changed people's life for the better

In the last day i've had two people tell me i made their day just the saying something simple.

In the last day i've been told that i helped someone change their life for the better and they're so happy to have me as a friend.

this whole last day had just made me feel really good about the friends i do have. 

Addiction

I have blogged for over 4 years now. And I can say it sometimes becomes an addiction of sorts. And i assumed it was just my personality at first because i have done this before with other activities such as excising and playing video games. But I know that it not just me. In my English book we have an entire chapter based around digital life and blogs. So I saw that my behaviors were in turn normal. And I saw this even more so when one of my friends started her own blog  and within 24 hours more or less have 4 postings and close to 20 views.  She too now is addicted to a web culture that is more attractive then doing cocaine off toilets in the 80's.  I still dont understand why it so appealing 100% myself. Cause 10 years ago this was a journal that i kept and hid from the world that i didn't want anyone to read. Now i don't care who finds their way here and reads what i have to say anymore. But maybe thats just it. This whole idea is so irresistible because it feeds in the human need to socialize thru some sort of contact. Even if I never see who you are, where you live or even what gender you are, were, will be. Its the simple fact that I have some how connected with you. 

Sleepless In Las Vegas

I've currently been up close to 24 hours and still sleep has yet to ensue. But I know I'm not the only one who feels this way. Many other people are still wide awake unable to sleep. I think I may need to develop some sort of night light after school to kill my energy at the end of the day. Maybe then I wont feel like the old man who lives in the middle of the cut-de-sac that yells for no apparent reason. But these sleepless night could be the by-product of a unproductive day before the hour of 1800.  

0730- Woke up Watched the news

1000-showered

1100-went to AT&T

1145- Went to Starbucks and did my homework

1530- Went home ate lunch

1630- Stopped at Kawasaki and looked at the ZR-6 Ninja...I crave a yellow one

1730 - Got to school and chilled before class

1800-The first real productive thing of my day my SMB Class

2100- Came home

that my day its can be quite...dull and trivial when I have nothing to do. But alas I did have a spot of good news in the mixture

I have two paid photo-shoots coming up soon. 

One this upcoming Sunday with with Bugsy

Second next weekend in Minnesota...I have a first paid traveling gig!!! 

Hasta Luego Mis Lectores

-Kid Yosh

Hopeless

Hope*less

 adjective

1)felling or causing despair about something

2)inadequate;incompetent 

So I'm sitting here at Starbucks working on the take home quiz which I've had since last Thursday but due to my lack of planning and time management I still haven't finished it as I type this. My mind is to far wandering away wondering where I could find a place of employment. While talking with Myra yesterday she told me I should try back at my old job and see how that goes. So I have the even the results there seem ill-fated; however there is hope for the oncoming holiday shopping season is upon us. Over the last few months I have come to learn how desolate this place I refer to as my current fixture is. While shooting my aunt's god-son I shall to doom of the Las Vegas service industry before my very eyes. The casino we walked thru had implimented two new poker tables juxtaposed at the end of the pit. These tables had 5 seats around them and a screen where the dealer would be placed. This along with Microsoft surface will make Vegas close to fully automated. Why hire staff when you can have computer programs do their jobs for a fraction of the cost. But when I saw this it dawned on me that my discharge from Vegas must be properly planned. Alas this plan now needs much revising with out current economic state.

Begin Blog

Over the next week you will see my blog explode as if it the a plane into a building as move my blog over from myspace to here....my blog on myspace  has become the archive now and shall no longer be updated henceforth