8 Bars

8 bars is all it takes for memories to flood back into the mind. things you forgot and hid in the back of your mind never to remember. but 8 bars brings it back to the front, full detail, vivid memories. I need no time machine to travel back in time i just need those 8 simples bars to take me back to that place from long ago.

Science

its 4 in the morning and i am unable to sleep....i've been up almost 24 hours now. i'm tired, depressed, and wide awake. i feel like i'm getting nowhere. like a hamster in a fucking wheel i try so fucking hard but i get nowhere...i hated my jobs and but miss them. i hated standing around for hours on end talking to asshole who wasted my time only for me to get bitched at casue they didn't buy shit...but i miss the people i did it with. 

i turned 20 last week....i invited over 60 people...2 showed...and i enjoyed the time they where there....but it just showed me how little i can depend on people and who even cares that i exist. i've felt so depressed and alone since then....since then the only thing i can thing of is august, to hopefully get the reassurance that someone else cares about me. i know she cares me and i she knows i know. 

life has a funny way to letting me know things are going to get easy like i plan them...i feel like as soon as i begin to get somewhere something happens to put me back where i was like..like moving out....i was gonna be out 100% last sunday....but plans changed.

the ticking tocking on my watch is the reminder that i only have so much time to do what needs to be done. like so many americans i wear i watch...but don't use it tell me what the current time is...i use it to tell me time is passing my watch currently reads 1:05, whichs tells me nothing beside the fact that time is moving and i have no control over it....yea i could set my watch the to current time and give me the mental illusion that that i am the one in control of time but i know i am not. so i leave it

I wanna

scream so loud that deaf people will hear. I'm so fustrated with the state of the country. we live in a country where 13% of us are on unemployment. THIRTEEN FUCKING PERCENT!!! out country has gotten to a point where if things dont turn around within 8 year we could be a second world or even a 3rd world country. Gas is about to hit 4 dollars a gallon by the middle of next month. and there is shit we can do about. yea i can buy a fucking dodge and get gas a t 2.99 a year for 3 years...only problem is dodges aren't worth shit and the ones that do hold some value don't have the gas program. 

Mr. Bush has truly fucked over our country for something he foresaw as great personal gain for him and the country. and it would of been if we could of taken it over and had their oil within a year. We are spending close to 100million dollars a month on this POINTLESS FUCKING WAR!!! 

Hugo Chavez is the only person who can do anything about the price of gas here in the country. But Bush has too much pride to talk to him and buy oil from him in South America. I guess mr. bush would rather steal oil from across the world then buy it from "Dirty boarder hoping mexicans who steal american jobs" NO!!!! They don't steal American jobs. WE SOLD AMERICAN JOBS!! we have fucked ourselves over in the long run of things. There is no more made in America. There are no more production plants within our country for our cars. Toyota, Subaru, and Benz make more cars in our country then we do in ours. The majority of the cars that are Made in America (FORD, GM, CHEVY) are HECHO EN MEXICO.

So now me and the other 13% of the country are fighting for jobs that high school students normally work. With us working those jobs the students have no jobs to make money with. and because so many of us who are overquailfed for these jobs are working them we are unable to find the jobs that we really want, because the places we use to work don't have enought business to make ends met. and when ends dont met in the corp. world the start chopping at the high end and the low end of the pole. If you make too much your gone. if you haven't been there long enough your gone. 

The Babyboomer generation is telling us its easy to find a job. When was they last time they looked. most of them have been at the current job for over 10 years. yea 10 years ago you could get a job...hell 5 years ago you could get a job. i remember i got offers but i wasn't old enough. now i cant find a job that'll make my ends meet.

Alas for once i can truly say that my problems have been created by another source other then myself. for you can't sell something when your customer can't afford it. and your customer can't buy it, you've got no business and its time to start making cuts.

on a last note. To the Gradutating Class of 2008. don't move out, stay at home untill you can move out and you have the money saved away to pay bills 3 months in advance. yea it'd be awesome to be 18 and living away from home but now a days without the support of mom and dad it almost impossible

So Creative

the ideas run thru my mind faster then my eyes can seem them. i an unable to verblize the things i see that my hands can write them. My hands are unable to express the things the mind sees and i return to square one. Running around in a constant search to take the ideas i see and not understand for they are beyond language. but if i can see it enough times i see that it lacks language and therefore cannot be put into any written language. but i am able to repeat and loop these things so that i can draw that out or attempt to give them a language. Language is something that is understood my all, one, some, or none. it all in the intent of how the language was used. the language you've just read was my attempt to capture an image that runs thru my mind looping over and over waiting for me to capture it. and i have. and now it has been filled without ever showing the world what the image was. 

Language is sometimes only understood by ONE.

You as Americans

ARE FUCKING IDIOTS!!!!

our country has been tricking us and doing what they want us to do. We do this thngs becasue the media spins it to make it look as it in our favor. But it is not. The American government is tricking us into doing what they want us to do. since the birth of America is been corrupt. 

WAR=MONEY and the banks have come to learn this. They have learned that if they can find a reason to force the country into war their pockets will grow fat. 

To fund a war you need money. To get needed money you must borrow it from the Federal Reserve. 

Question: If the government owns the federal reverse why are they borrowing money from themselfs.....you can't give yourself 200 bucks when you need. NIETHER CAN THE GOVERNMENT

The Federal Reserve is a PRIVATE banking company that deals directly with the Government. 

when the Government borrows money from the reserve they are charged interest on it.

Lets break that down..... You have Zero dollars....you come to me and say "Hey Yosh i need 3 billion cause...whatever" I say "ok heres your money but i'm charging interest on every dollar you borrow." So...you spend that three billion and now you have to pay it back...what do you do...BORROW MORE MONEY FROM ME!!!!! doing this over and over and over again. What does this mean. THAT YOU NEVER EXIT DEBT!!! even borrowing one dollar from me would screw you over for the rest of your life. 

Now knowing that you need money for wars. and that you liek wars cause it gives you a chance to become the big dog you fight in wars even if not needed


AMERICAN DID NOT NEED TO ENTER WORLD WAR I...but we did

WWI was mainly between Germany and England...two countries that have been fighting on and off since the 1600s....How did we get dragged into WWI easy...we sent a ship with american civilans and ammo into GERMAN CONTROLLED WATERS....after they had told us that if we did they'd blow it up...What do we do....We throw a ship in there in it blows up. How do we react....OMG GERMANY IS ATTACKING US!!!! we enter WWI we borrow money bankers pockets get fat.


AMERICAN BANKS FUNDED BOTH SIDES OFF WWII
Germany had a plane engine during WWII that only worked when an Additive from AMERICAN STANDARD OIL was added. Which is owned by the Rockefeller family. American Standard Oil is still around...We know it as ...Chevron. Union Banking Corporation also funded Germany Nazi....The Union Banking Corp. was Directed by Bush...not our President but his grandfather Preston Scott Bush.

Funny fact about how Bush..errr i mean Hitler started WWII....he bombed one of his own building and blamed it on Commys and said they needed to build an army to fight back. He also passed a law 

ohhyea Standard oil also funded I.G Farben that company that funded Nazi Germany with money to buy weapons and make the chemicals used to poison Jews in the camps.

So how did we get into WWII...Pearl Harbor...the surprise attack on us...WRONG WRONG WRONG!!!WRONG!!! We provoked Japan to attack us...how
1) We stopped trading oil will them
2) we froze all american assets they had
3) we began trade with China and U.K breaking War Rules

and it was NOT a surprise. Our friends from down under in Australia told us they where coming 3 days ahead of time.

BAM!!! We're in a war again......







This is all alot to take it i know so i'm done and i'll leave you with this quote

"AN EVIL EXISTS THAT THREATENS EVERY MAN, WOMAN 
AND CHILD OF THIS GREAT NATION. WE MUST TAKE
STEPS TO ENSURE OUR DOMESTIC SECURITY
AND PROTECT OUR HOMELAND"
-GEORGE W. BUSH
-ADOLF HITLER